Thursday, April 3, 2014

new born Hafizee ~ (Part II)

Cont'd...

Setelah 4 ari 3 malam kt HoSHAS, my syg text ckp doc bg dia blk uma dl...
reason dia...hihihi...no sign to deliver yet plus ari tu wad tetiba je penuh...smpai letak extra katil...bg laluan kpd yg lbh memerlukan la...so balik ke rumah dl la dia...hehehe...baru aku tau yg aku hanya di gegarkn oleh premature contraction...

so selepas 2 minggu, 4 March 2014, dia ckp sakit skali lg...this time aku berbelah bagi nk bwk g spital ke tak...tp due date dia pn dh tak lama..lg seminggu je...jd, aku bwk gak la dia g spital...smpai sane, mcm bese la...msk labour room trus...aku tggu kt lua dl...pas 2 jam, nurse jmpe aku ckp wife xde progress nk deliver lg...so admit lg skali...
"Encik blh g wad Kenanga 3 ye...kami akan anta isteri kt citu"...aku tny "skang ke?" dia balas "ye, skang"...aku pn pikul la beg brg sume turun tangga n naik lif g wad kenanga 3...aku tunggu dlm 15 minit kt lobi then msk dlm wad nk tgk kot2 dh smpai wad...puas mencari n bertanya, diorg ckp x smpai lg...hmmm..lma la plak...bkn dekat je ke labour room ngan wad ni??? (patient blh ikut jalan short cut tp aku tak blh).. aku tggu la lg kt lobi wad tu...x lm pastu ade org call ckp wife still ade dlm labour room...diorg ckp dh ade sign nk deliver...aku pn pikul la semula sume brg g labour room blk...tggu lg 1 jam, nurse dtg jmpe aku ckp xde progress lg...jln bkk 4 cm je...nk anta g wad kenanga 4 pulak..."btl ke nk msk wad ni???jgn cancel lg tau...berat kot nk pikul 3 beg turun naik tangga...bkk pintu pn pakai kaki ni.." diorg ckp "btl encik..kali ni kompom.." aku balas "ok..sy tunggu kt sana.." ade sikit hangin kt situ sbb kne angkut beg tgh ari gegat trn naik tangga...plus bahu aku still tak sihat...joint dislocate last year...

so menetap la wife aku kt wad kenanga 4 dl...doc ckp kalo mlm nti still xde sign nk deliver, esok tgh ari msk ubat...kasi cpt cikit bkk jalan tu...mlm tu still takde progress...tgh ari esoknye msk la ubat sedas...hihihi...dlm kul 4 ptg wife dh ngeluh ckp sakit...ermm...tak lama dh ni kot...dlm kul 5.40 ptg, wife aku ckp dia dh tak tahan sakit...nurse dtg n bawak dia nk check jalan...tetiba aku dengar ade org menjerit "dh bukak 8 cm...talipon labour room cepat!!!!" tak lama pastu aku nampak 4 org nurse berlari tolak katil wife aku g labour room...ade sorg trainee dtg kt aku ckp "encik blh bwk brg baby g labour room skang...bwk sikit je...brg lain tinggal..." aku jawab "ok2...sy ni blh ikut diorg x?" aku malas nk ikut jalan jauh...diorg ckp blh...aku pn capai pampers cikit,  pad & baju baby...aku toleh je lorong kt lua dh tak nmpk pape...mak aiii...cptnye diorg lari...nmpknye kne ikut jln jauh gak la aku ni...sampai je kt sane, aku pass brg yg aku bwk tadi...diorg suh aku tunggu kt lua dl...tggu dlm 20 minit, ade sorg nurse dtg jmpe aku bwk sorg baby.."encik dh wuduk??Kalo dh, blh azankn anak ni trus.." ullpp...dh besalin ke??cptnye...tak sempat aku nk msk...
so tepat jam 6.11 ptg Hafizee selamat menjengah dunia...Alhamdulillah...sgt baik orgnye...selama aku dukung azankan dia, dia tak nangis pn...dgr suara pn tidak...tetiba je aku terpikir, bisu ke ank aku ni???ayooo...ade ke mcm tu...wahahaha...tidak rupenye...selesai sume skali dlm kul 11 mlm br msk wad...kul 12 lbh br la aku blk uma...senyum lebor aku dpt sepasang dh...

Hafizee 1 day...

esoknye, tgh ari aku g spital dgn hasrat nk bwk blk anak & mamanye...smpai sana wife ckp yg doc nk amik darah dl...nk check kuning...n that time aku mmg dh nmpk sign dia ni kuning...tggu result dia dlm sejam, doc ckp kne tahan wad dl ni...kuning tinggi sgt...reading dia 249...aku terkebil2 tgk wife aku..."syg nk duk mane plak pasni?" diorg dh ckp awal2 yg NICU skang ni full (tpt utk ibu yg menunggu anak)...ermm...papehal pn g la sane dl...Hafizee diorg dh amik awal2 td...smpai sane mmg pnuh...almaklum la musim panas ni baby mmg cpt sgt kuning...so kitorg juz duduk kt area pelawat je...cian sgt kt my wife...sakit besalin tak abis lg...kne plak duduk je...
Dlm kul 4 ptg doc panggil aku n wife..."Encik, sy ade berita utk encik..baby encik ni ade masalah sikit...kami still diagnosis...most probably dia ade G6PD..." menatang ape la G6PD ni...aku pn kurang faham sgt ngn medical terms diorg ni...tapi yg aku fhm diorg ckp Hafizee ade masalah ngn sel darah merah dia...sel darah merah dia dh rosak...diorg ckp mungkin masa pregnant, darah wife aku dh msk dlm darah dia yg mana sel darah mama dia tak compatible ngan sel darah dia then sel darah tu dh memecahkan molekul2 sel darah Hafizee..percentage dia dh cecah 15%...allowable is only 5%..n sel darah putih dia pulak dh dijangkiti kuman...disebabkn mende tu, kuning Hafizee naik mendadak...pas msk NICU kuning dia naik jd 275...berderau darah aku ms tu...wife aku dh teresak2 dh ni...doc ckp lg yg dia ade 2 option je skang...first dia akan bg ubat utk stop pemecahan molekul2 darah Hafizee...kalo yg tu tak jadi, second option Hafizee terpaksa tukar darah...hmmm..."jadi ape plan doc skang ni?" aku tny..."we'll try to give him the medicine first & we'll monitor the reaction every 4 hours...for the mean time, jgn bg dia susu dl...kitorg kne puasakan dia...encik & isteri jgn pegi mane2 yea...tggu kt sini je...adeape2 nti kami akn bgtau.." aku ckp kt dia "i don't mind standing here all day, but could you please find my wife a place to lay down at least...she's very tired & the pain  is still there..." dia balas "we'll try encik..." but mean time aku n wife duduk kt tpt td...sblm aku kuar dr wad tu, aku tgk badan Hafizee dh berbalut dgn mcm2 wayar...kiri kanan tgn dia dh ade jarum...kaki pn ade...4 lampu yg cahayakan dia...Ya Allah..kesiannye aku tgk...Hafizee tak nangis pn masa tu...yg tu lg la wat hati aku ni hiba...tgk wife aku yg tgh sakit tu duduk je, lg la wat aku ssh ati...kalo ade alas, nk je aku suh dia baring kt tepi koridor tu...
Tggu smpai mlm, still xde news...aku mtk ayah aku anta mkn sikit...dh 1 ari aku tak mkn...same goes to my wife...semangkuk bubur abis dia mkn mlm tu...tp aku jamah 2-3 suap nasik je...hilang sume selera mkn aku...terpikir plak anak sulung aku kt uma mak...dh mkn ke dia???dia nangis tak???selama dia lahir ni, tak pernah lg dia berpisah ngn mak dia lbh dari 2 ari...
walaupn aku tahan,mengalir jugak air mata ni...aku wat solat hajat mtk sembuhkn Hafizee & mama dia...mudahkn perjalanan kami nti...


Hafizee...(T_T)
Cont'd on Part III

new born Hafizee ~ (Part I)

Assalamualaikum sume...

sesungguhnye teramat lame tak bercite dalam belog nih...
dh penuh sgt habuknye...lipas, cicak, ikan masin, mengkarung sume ade...hihihi...

well, balik kapal kali ni aku menyambut kelahiran seorang lagi ahli baru family aku...Hafizee namanye...Dia membawa maksud Pengawal Saya...memang itulah hajat aku...mengharapkan dia ni jadi pengganti aku menjaga rumah serta keluarga dikala aku jauh di lautan...Insyaallah...

bab dia ni lahir ni mcm2 babak ade...dramatik, realistik, fantastik, plastik pn ade...



Sebelum menjual MT6


bermula dgn kepulang aku dr Bunga Melati 6...sign off kt Singapore on 15 Feb 2014...sbb turun dr kapal dh kul 2 ptg, jadi smpai kt Larkin dh dlm kul 6 ptg...bese la nk kuar dr singpore time org dh stat kua opis ni...amat la jemnye kt tambak johor nun...ditambah pulak formalities ngn authority singapore ms tu...
sampai kt larkin je, trus tgk tiket bas nk blk temerloh...paling cpt kul 10.30 mlm...so takde ckp byk trus bli yg plg cpt tu...

dlm kul 11 mlm bas br grk dr larkin...ayoo...lambat sungguh...
ditambah pulak mlm tu ade football match antara JDT ngn terengganu kalo tak silap...bukan main jem jln dia...aaiiiigggoooo...dlm kul 4.30 pg baru aku mendarat kt temerloh...hihihi...aku kejutkan abg aku yg tgh lena beradu utk amik aku...smpai kt uma mak aku (wife duk uma mak sbb dh almost due takut2 nk besalin if aku x blk lg) dlm kul 5.30 pg...so dh genap 24 jam aku tak tido...(dlm bas tak mampu nk tido sbb bas kerap sgt berenti) sembang cikit2 sementara nk tggu subuh tu...
pas subuh tu, my syg ngadu "abg, sakit perut la"...aku ckp sakit bese2 je kot...dlm kul 8 pg tu wife aku dh tak tahan dh sakit katenye...mak aku pn suh g spital...tergamam aku...aku tak tido lg ni...ngantoknye tuhan je yg tau...
dlm terpinga2 tu aku pn bwk gak dia g spital...mujur la dia dh packing sume brg2 yg patut...aku main angkut je beg yg dia ckp...sampai je sane dia msk labour room trus...tggu dlm 3 jam nurse ckp xde progress...so admit dl la...jalan br bukak 4 cm...nurse tu ckp maybe ptg or mlm ni bersalin kot...aku pn tggu je la kt spital tu...nk tido tp xde tpt nk baring...dlm kete bkn idea yg bgs sbb suhu tgh ari yg memcecah 35'C ni blh memanggang aku nti...aku pn menanti dgn sabarnye hingga tgh mlm...dlm kul 2 pg aku tnya wife aku, xde news lg ke??"no"...abg tido dl ye...dh ngantok sgt2 ni...dia ckp ok je trus aku tido...dlm kete je...dgn amannye aku tido smpai la kul 10 pg esoknye....arramak...lamenye terlajak...trus aku kol wife tnye news...dia ckp "xde lg bang"..."abg blk dl blh?? nk mandi ni...last mandi pg smlm..."dia ckp ok...aku pn blk la...
nk tgk ank sulung kitorg kt uma tu...

>>>Cont. on Part II

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Prisoner of the SeA

Locked up in the middle of the sea
Far away from the nature of normal human being
Restriction of every movement
Bounded by thousands of regulations
Being pushed beyond the human limit

Round the clock we serve for the world
We put the utmost effort
Yet we've never been recognize
We'll keep stayed low
We won't expose ourselves
We won't show how hard we try

The unforgiving sea condition
The reduced manning
The work load
The commercial demand & pressure
The fatigue that we face on the daily basis

But still we choose to be at sea
We can't sleep without the rolling
We can't have the meal without the sweat
We can't lough without the seasick

Once a year we are to be remembered
25 June
It is our Day
To show the world who we are
To show how the multi-million businesses are carried out

To all seaman in the world
We are carrying the pride of floating people
we did everything on our own

ONLY THE BEST MAN CAN GO TO SEA...

Saturday, March 31, 2012

sign on again...


haip...
dh 3 bulan lebih cuti...
so now its time to leave...
kali ni jumpa janda lame lak...
Bunga Melati 7...
as i said before, aku memang nak naik kapal lame balik...
tak larat nak keje kapal baru...

ni dah 3 ari kt hotel...
esok kul 9 pagi baru gerak g kapal...
on kt port kelang je...

aku dalam dilema skang ni...
either nk quit or continue keje ngan company ni...
member2 ajak angkat kaki...
sifu2 suh sabar dulu...dptkan CoC mate dulu...
i know that CoC mate tu bonus utk aku kalo nk angkat kaki nti...
tp at the same time aku dah kurang sabar ngan company ni yg asyik menyakitkan hati para pelaut...
kalo cabut skang ni memang la lega ati...
tp bape lm senang tu tak sure la kan...
kalo stay lg, ati memang susah..
tp future lebih cerah...
tp ape mende sekali pn mesti ade pro & contra kan...

kalo bab duit ni aku mmg blh decide dlm sekelip mate je....
tp bab future ni aku btl2 hati2...
sebab aku taknak susah & menyusahkan org lain nti...

aku tengah blurr ape nak wat...
memang kalo boleh aku nak dapat CoC mate tu...
dapat master lg bagus...
bia pn tak command...
tp bape lame lg aku nak tunggu...
dah 5 tahun aku jadi 3rd mate kt cni...
takde bunga2 pn aku blh naik...
contract pn tak gerak2 lg...

ape la nasib aku 10 tahun lg ye...
cmne la aku nti...
do i will live in luxury life???
or hidup selesa je???
or today for today, tomorrow lain cite???
bg aku selesa dh cukup...
tp sape yg tau future kan...

so aku hanya mampu sab je dl...
let me think deeper bout this thing...
mane la tau kalo ade hidayah mase atas kapal nti...
hihihi...

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Updates....

Holla sumer...
ye ke sume???
padahal xde org pn yg bace blog aku nih except my syg..hahaha

dh lame btl x update blog ni...
ape blh buat..lepas rindu kt anak & isteri la kan..

well, byk sungguh mende yg x terjangka & x dirancang jadi...
contohnye mcm skang ni la...
currently in JB..
why???
nk tgk uma...
where???
kt nusajaya...
hahaha..

actually x pnh terpikir mahupn merancang nk beli uma ni....
tp disebabkan aku dh pissed off mencarik uma sewa yg x jua berjumpe,
aku telah memutuskan utk membeli aje uma baru....
agak2 la, bpe lm ms aku berfikir utk membeli uma ni???
hihihi...
guess what..
less than 12 hours...
mcm nk beli baju kt kedai je kan...
tp knp kt JB???
why not kt  tempat lain???
aku pn x pasti knp...
sbb aku ikut org???
or keinginan aku merantau yg aku dh pendam since aku d bangku sekolah lg???
ahhh...
malas nk fikir...
maybe cara aku x mcm org lain yg suke memilih & terlalu memikirkan baik  buruk sesuatu...
kalo aku suke, then i will decide ASAP...
bg aku bile terlalu lame & byk berfikir, terlalu byk cabang2 yg menyerabutkan kepala otak aku ni...
so think fast & act accordingly...
for me  kalo beli aset, i have nothing to lose (even byk gak duit yg terbang)...
xpe la...
lagipn mylife, is in my hand...
org blh bg nasihat, tp x boleh decide utk aku....
org blh sedih tgk aku ssh, tp x blh ssh same ngan aku...
so be brave...move foreward...
silap kite, kite yg tanggung la kan...

ok la...
dh kul 3 pagi nih...
esok pagi nk g tgk uma lak...
chow dulu la...