Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Thursday, April 3, 2014
new born Hafizee ~ (Part II)
Cont'd...
Setelah 4 ari 3 malam kt HoSHAS, my syg text ckp doc bg dia blk uma dl...
reason dia...hihihi...no sign to deliver yet plus ari tu wad tetiba je penuh...smpai letak extra katil...bg laluan kpd yg lbh memerlukan la...so balik ke rumah dl la dia...hehehe...baru aku tau yg aku hanya di gegarkn oleh premature contraction...
so selepas 2 minggu, 4 March 2014, dia ckp sakit skali lg...this time aku berbelah bagi nk bwk g spital ke tak...tp due date dia pn dh tak lama..lg seminggu je...jd, aku bwk gak la dia g spital...smpai sane, mcm bese la...msk labour room trus...aku tggu kt lua dl...pas 2 jam, nurse jmpe aku ckp wife xde progress nk deliver lg...so admit lg skali...
"Encik blh g wad Kenanga 3 ye...kami akan anta isteri kt citu"...aku tny "skang ke?" dia balas "ye, skang"...aku pn pikul la beg brg sume turun tangga n naik lif g wad kenanga 3...aku tunggu dlm 15 minit kt lobi then msk dlm wad nk tgk kot2 dh smpai wad...puas mencari n bertanya, diorg ckp x smpai lg...hmmm..lma la plak...bkn dekat je ke labour room ngan wad ni??? (patient blh ikut jalan short cut tp aku tak blh).. aku tggu la lg kt lobi wad tu...x lm pastu ade org call ckp wife still ade dlm labour room...diorg ckp dh ade sign nk deliver...aku pn pikul la semula sume brg g labour room blk...tggu lg 1 jam, nurse dtg jmpe aku ckp xde progress lg...jln bkk 4 cm je...nk anta g wad kenanga 4 pulak..."btl ke nk msk wad ni???jgn cancel lg tau...berat kot nk pikul 3 beg turun naik tangga...bkk pintu pn pakai kaki ni.." diorg ckp "btl encik..kali ni kompom.." aku balas "ok..sy tunggu kt sana.." ade sikit hangin kt situ sbb kne angkut beg tgh ari gegat trn naik tangga...plus bahu aku still tak sihat...joint dislocate last year...
so menetap la wife aku kt wad kenanga 4 dl...doc ckp kalo mlm nti still xde sign nk deliver, esok tgh ari msk ubat...kasi cpt cikit bkk jalan tu...mlm tu still takde progress...tgh ari esoknye msk la ubat sedas...hihihi...dlm kul 4 ptg wife dh ngeluh ckp sakit...ermm...tak lama dh ni kot...dlm kul 5.40 ptg, wife aku ckp dia dh tak tahan sakit...nurse dtg n bawak dia nk check jalan...tetiba aku dengar ade org menjerit "dh bukak 8 cm...talipon labour room cepat!!!!" tak lama pastu aku nampak 4 org nurse berlari tolak katil wife aku g labour room...ade sorg trainee dtg kt aku ckp "encik blh bwk brg baby g labour room skang...bwk sikit je...brg lain tinggal..." aku jawab "ok2...sy ni blh ikut diorg x?" aku malas nk ikut jalan jauh...diorg ckp blh...aku pn capai pampers cikit, pad & baju baby...aku toleh je lorong kt lua dh tak nmpk pape...mak aiii...cptnye diorg lari...nmpknye kne ikut jln jauh gak la aku ni...sampai je kt sane, aku pass brg yg aku bwk tadi...diorg suh aku tunggu kt lua dl...tggu dlm 20 minit, ade sorg nurse dtg jmpe aku bwk sorg baby.."encik dh wuduk??Kalo dh, blh azankn anak ni trus.." ullpp...dh besalin ke??cptnye...tak sempat aku nk msk...
so tepat jam 6.11 ptg Hafizee selamat menjengah dunia...Alhamdulillah...sgt baik orgnye...selama aku dukung azankan dia, dia tak nangis pn...dgr suara pn tidak...tetiba je aku terpikir, bisu ke ank aku ni???ayooo...ade ke mcm tu...wahahaha...tidak rupenye...selesai sume skali dlm kul 11 mlm br msk wad...kul 12 lbh br la aku blk uma...senyum lebor aku dpt sepasang dh...
esoknye, tgh ari aku g spital dgn hasrat nk bwk blk anak & mamanye...smpai sana wife ckp yg doc nk amik darah dl...nk check kuning...n that time aku mmg dh nmpk sign dia ni kuning...tggu result dia dlm sejam, doc ckp kne tahan wad dl ni...kuning tinggi sgt...reading dia 249...aku terkebil2 tgk wife aku..."syg nk duk mane plak pasni?" diorg dh ckp awal2 yg NICU skang ni full (tpt utk ibu yg menunggu anak)...ermm...papehal pn g la sane dl...Hafizee diorg dh amik awal2 td...smpai sane mmg pnuh...almaklum la musim panas ni baby mmg cpt sgt kuning...so kitorg juz duduk kt area pelawat je...cian sgt kt my wife...sakit besalin tak abis lg...kne plak duduk je...
Dlm kul 4 ptg doc panggil aku n wife..."Encik, sy ade berita utk encik..baby encik ni ade masalah sikit...kami still diagnosis...most probably dia ade G6PD..." menatang ape la G6PD ni...aku pn kurang faham sgt ngn medical terms diorg ni...tapi yg aku fhm diorg ckp Hafizee ade masalah ngn sel darah merah dia...sel darah merah dia dh rosak...diorg ckp mungkin masa pregnant, darah wife aku dh msk dlm darah dia yg mana sel darah mama dia tak compatible ngan sel darah dia then sel darah tu dh memecahkan molekul2 sel darah Hafizee..percentage dia dh cecah 15%...allowable is only 5%..n sel darah putih dia pulak dh dijangkiti kuman...disebabkn mende tu, kuning Hafizee naik mendadak...pas msk NICU kuning dia naik jd 275...berderau darah aku ms tu...wife aku dh teresak2 dh ni...doc ckp lg yg dia ade 2 option je skang...first dia akan bg ubat utk stop pemecahan molekul2 darah Hafizee...kalo yg tu tak jadi, second option Hafizee terpaksa tukar darah...hmmm..."jadi ape plan doc skang ni?" aku tny..."we'll try to give him the medicine first & we'll monitor the reaction every 4 hours...for the mean time, jgn bg dia susu dl...kitorg kne puasakan dia...encik & isteri jgn pegi mane2 yea...tggu kt sini je...adeape2 nti kami akn bgtau.." aku ckp kt dia "i don't mind standing here all day, but could you please find my wife a place to lay down at least...she's very tired & the pain is still there..." dia balas "we'll try encik..." but mean time aku n wife duduk kt tpt td...sblm aku kuar dr wad tu, aku tgk badan Hafizee dh berbalut dgn mcm2 wayar...kiri kanan tgn dia dh ade jarum...kaki pn ade...4 lampu yg cahayakan dia...Ya Allah..kesiannye aku tgk...Hafizee tak nangis pn masa tu...yg tu lg la wat hati aku ni hiba...tgk wife aku yg tgh sakit tu duduk je, lg la wat aku ssh ati...kalo ade alas, nk je aku suh dia baring kt tepi koridor tu...
Tggu smpai mlm, still xde news...aku mtk ayah aku anta mkn sikit...dh 1 ari aku tak mkn...same goes to my wife...semangkuk bubur abis dia mkn mlm tu...tp aku jamah 2-3 suap nasik je...hilang sume selera mkn aku...terpikir plak anak sulung aku kt uma mak...dh mkn ke dia???dia nangis tak???selama dia lahir ni, tak pernah lg dia berpisah ngn mak dia lbh dari 2 ari...
walaupn aku tahan,mengalir jugak air mata ni...aku wat solat hajat mtk sembuhkn Hafizee & mama dia...mudahkn perjalanan kami nti...
Cont'd on Part III
Setelah 4 ari 3 malam kt HoSHAS, my syg text ckp doc bg dia blk uma dl...
reason dia...hihihi...no sign to deliver yet plus ari tu wad tetiba je penuh...smpai letak extra katil...bg laluan kpd yg lbh memerlukan la...so balik ke rumah dl la dia...hehehe...baru aku tau yg aku hanya di gegarkn oleh premature contraction...
so selepas 2 minggu, 4 March 2014, dia ckp sakit skali lg...this time aku berbelah bagi nk bwk g spital ke tak...tp due date dia pn dh tak lama..lg seminggu je...jd, aku bwk gak la dia g spital...smpai sane, mcm bese la...msk labour room trus...aku tggu kt lua dl...pas 2 jam, nurse jmpe aku ckp wife xde progress nk deliver lg...so admit lg skali...
"Encik blh g wad Kenanga 3 ye...kami akan anta isteri kt citu"...aku tny "skang ke?" dia balas "ye, skang"...aku pn pikul la beg brg sume turun tangga n naik lif g wad kenanga 3...aku tunggu dlm 15 minit kt lobi then msk dlm wad nk tgk kot2 dh smpai wad...puas mencari n bertanya, diorg ckp x smpai lg...hmmm..lma la plak...bkn dekat je ke labour room ngan wad ni??? (patient blh ikut jalan short cut tp aku tak blh).. aku tggu la lg kt lobi wad tu...x lm pastu ade org call ckp wife still ade dlm labour room...diorg ckp dh ade sign nk deliver...aku pn pikul la semula sume brg g labour room blk...tggu lg 1 jam, nurse dtg jmpe aku ckp xde progress lg...jln bkk 4 cm je...nk anta g wad kenanga 4 pulak..."btl ke nk msk wad ni???jgn cancel lg tau...berat kot nk pikul 3 beg turun naik tangga...bkk pintu pn pakai kaki ni.." diorg ckp "btl encik..kali ni kompom.." aku balas "ok..sy tunggu kt sana.." ade sikit hangin kt situ sbb kne angkut beg tgh ari gegat trn naik tangga...plus bahu aku still tak sihat...joint dislocate last year...
so menetap la wife aku kt wad kenanga 4 dl...doc ckp kalo mlm nti still xde sign nk deliver, esok tgh ari msk ubat...kasi cpt cikit bkk jalan tu...mlm tu still takde progress...tgh ari esoknye msk la ubat sedas...hihihi...dlm kul 4 ptg wife dh ngeluh ckp sakit...ermm...tak lama dh ni kot...dlm kul 5.40 ptg, wife aku ckp dia dh tak tahan sakit...nurse dtg n bawak dia nk check jalan...tetiba aku dengar ade org menjerit "dh bukak 8 cm...talipon labour room cepat!!!!" tak lama pastu aku nampak 4 org nurse berlari tolak katil wife aku g labour room...ade sorg trainee dtg kt aku ckp "encik blh bwk brg baby g labour room skang...bwk sikit je...brg lain tinggal..." aku jawab "ok2...sy ni blh ikut diorg x?" aku malas nk ikut jalan jauh...diorg ckp blh...aku pn capai pampers cikit, pad & baju baby...aku toleh je lorong kt lua dh tak nmpk pape...mak aiii...cptnye diorg lari...nmpknye kne ikut jln jauh gak la aku ni...sampai je kt sane, aku pass brg yg aku bwk tadi...diorg suh aku tunggu kt lua dl...tggu dlm 20 minit, ade sorg nurse dtg jmpe aku bwk sorg baby.."encik dh wuduk??Kalo dh, blh azankn anak ni trus.." ullpp...dh besalin ke??cptnye...tak sempat aku nk msk...
so tepat jam 6.11 ptg Hafizee selamat menjengah dunia...Alhamdulillah...sgt baik orgnye...selama aku dukung azankan dia, dia tak nangis pn...dgr suara pn tidak...tetiba je aku terpikir, bisu ke ank aku ni???ayooo...ade ke mcm tu...wahahaha...tidak rupenye...selesai sume skali dlm kul 11 mlm br msk wad...kul 12 lbh br la aku blk uma...senyum lebor aku dpt sepasang dh...
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| Hafizee 1 day... |
esoknye, tgh ari aku g spital dgn hasrat nk bwk blk anak & mamanye...smpai sana wife ckp yg doc nk amik darah dl...nk check kuning...n that time aku mmg dh nmpk sign dia ni kuning...tggu result dia dlm sejam, doc ckp kne tahan wad dl ni...kuning tinggi sgt...reading dia 249...aku terkebil2 tgk wife aku..."syg nk duk mane plak pasni?" diorg dh ckp awal2 yg NICU skang ni full (tpt utk ibu yg menunggu anak)...ermm...papehal pn g la sane dl...Hafizee diorg dh amik awal2 td...smpai sane mmg pnuh...almaklum la musim panas ni baby mmg cpt sgt kuning...so kitorg juz duduk kt area pelawat je...cian sgt kt my wife...sakit besalin tak abis lg...kne plak duduk je...
Dlm kul 4 ptg doc panggil aku n wife..."Encik, sy ade berita utk encik..baby encik ni ade masalah sikit...kami still diagnosis...most probably dia ade G6PD..." menatang ape la G6PD ni...aku pn kurang faham sgt ngn medical terms diorg ni...tapi yg aku fhm diorg ckp Hafizee ade masalah ngn sel darah merah dia...sel darah merah dia dh rosak...diorg ckp mungkin masa pregnant, darah wife aku dh msk dlm darah dia yg mana sel darah mama dia tak compatible ngan sel darah dia then sel darah tu dh memecahkan molekul2 sel darah Hafizee..percentage dia dh cecah 15%...allowable is only 5%..n sel darah putih dia pulak dh dijangkiti kuman...disebabkn mende tu, kuning Hafizee naik mendadak...pas msk NICU kuning dia naik jd 275...berderau darah aku ms tu...wife aku dh teresak2 dh ni...doc ckp lg yg dia ade 2 option je skang...first dia akan bg ubat utk stop pemecahan molekul2 darah Hafizee...kalo yg tu tak jadi, second option Hafizee terpaksa tukar darah...hmmm..."jadi ape plan doc skang ni?" aku tny..."we'll try to give him the medicine first & we'll monitor the reaction every 4 hours...for the mean time, jgn bg dia susu dl...kitorg kne puasakan dia...encik & isteri jgn pegi mane2 yea...tggu kt sini je...adeape2 nti kami akn bgtau.." aku ckp kt dia "i don't mind standing here all day, but could you please find my wife a place to lay down at least...she's very tired & the pain is still there..." dia balas "we'll try encik..." but mean time aku n wife duduk kt tpt td...sblm aku kuar dr wad tu, aku tgk badan Hafizee dh berbalut dgn mcm2 wayar...kiri kanan tgn dia dh ade jarum...kaki pn ade...4 lampu yg cahayakan dia...Ya Allah..kesiannye aku tgk...Hafizee tak nangis pn masa tu...yg tu lg la wat hati aku ni hiba...tgk wife aku yg tgh sakit tu duduk je, lg la wat aku ssh ati...kalo ade alas, nk je aku suh dia baring kt tepi koridor tu...
Tggu smpai mlm, still xde news...aku mtk ayah aku anta mkn sikit...dh 1 ari aku tak mkn...same goes to my wife...semangkuk bubur abis dia mkn mlm tu...tp aku jamah 2-3 suap nasik je...hilang sume selera mkn aku...terpikir plak anak sulung aku kt uma mak...dh mkn ke dia???dia nangis tak???selama dia lahir ni, tak pernah lg dia berpisah ngn mak dia lbh dari 2 ari...
walaupn aku tahan,mengalir jugak air mata ni...aku wat solat hajat mtk sembuhkn Hafizee & mama dia...mudahkn perjalanan kami nti...
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| Hafizee...(T_T) |
new born Hafizee ~ (Part I)
Assalamualaikum sume...
sesungguhnye teramat lame tak bercite dalam belog nih...
dh penuh sgt habuknye...lipas, cicak, ikan masin, mengkarung sume ade...hihihi...
well, balik kapal kali ni aku menyambut kelahiran seorang lagi ahli baru family aku...Hafizee namanye...Dia membawa maksud Pengawal Saya...memang itulah hajat aku...mengharapkan dia ni jadi pengganti aku menjaga rumah serta keluarga dikala aku jauh di lautan...Insyaallah...
bab dia ni lahir ni mcm2 babak ade...dramatik, realistik, fantastik, plastik pn ade...
bermula dgn kepulang aku dr Bunga Melati 6...sign off kt Singapore on 15 Feb 2014...sbb turun dr kapal dh kul 2 ptg, jadi smpai kt Larkin dh dlm kul 6 ptg...bese la nk kuar dr singpore time org dh stat kua opis ni...amat la jemnye kt tambak johor nun...ditambah pulak formalities ngn authority singapore ms tu...
sampai kt larkin je, trus tgk tiket bas nk blk temerloh...paling cpt kul 10.30 mlm...so takde ckp byk trus bli yg plg cpt tu...
dlm kul 11 mlm bas br grk dr larkin...ayoo...lambat sungguh...
ditambah pulak mlm tu ade football match antara JDT ngn terengganu kalo tak silap...bukan main jem jln dia...aaiiiigggoooo...dlm kul 4.30 pg baru aku mendarat kt temerloh...hihihi...aku kejutkan abg aku yg tgh lena beradu utk amik aku...smpai kt uma mak aku (wife duk uma mak sbb dh almost due takut2 nk besalin if aku x blk lg) dlm kul 5.30 pg...so dh genap 24 jam aku tak tido...(dlm bas tak mampu nk tido sbb bas kerap sgt berenti) sembang cikit2 sementara nk tggu subuh tu...
pas subuh tu, my syg ngadu "abg, sakit perut la"...aku ckp sakit bese2 je kot...dlm kul 8 pg tu wife aku dh tak tahan dh sakit katenye...mak aku pn suh g spital...tergamam aku...aku tak tido lg ni...ngantoknye tuhan je yg tau...
dlm terpinga2 tu aku pn bwk gak dia g spital...mujur la dia dh packing sume brg2 yg patut...aku main angkut je beg yg dia ckp...sampai je sane dia msk labour room trus...tggu dlm 3 jam nurse ckp xde progress...so admit dl la...jalan br bukak 4 cm...nurse tu ckp maybe ptg or mlm ni bersalin kot...aku pn tggu je la kt spital tu...nk tido tp xde tpt nk baring...dlm kete bkn idea yg bgs sbb suhu tgh ari yg memcecah 35'C ni blh memanggang aku nti...aku pn menanti dgn sabarnye hingga tgh mlm...dlm kul 2 pg aku tnya wife aku, xde news lg ke??"no"...abg tido dl ye...dh ngantok sgt2 ni...dia ckp ok je trus aku tido...dlm kete je...dgn amannye aku tido smpai la kul 10 pg esoknye....arramak...lamenye terlajak...trus aku kol wife tnye news...dia ckp "xde lg bang"..."abg blk dl blh?? nk mandi ni...last mandi pg smlm..."dia ckp ok...aku pn blk la...
nk tgk ank sulung kitorg kt uma tu...
>>>Cont. on Part II
sesungguhnye teramat lame tak bercite dalam belog nih...
dh penuh sgt habuknye...lipas, cicak, ikan masin, mengkarung sume ade...hihihi...
well, balik kapal kali ni aku menyambut kelahiran seorang lagi ahli baru family aku...Hafizee namanye...Dia membawa maksud Pengawal Saya...memang itulah hajat aku...mengharapkan dia ni jadi pengganti aku menjaga rumah serta keluarga dikala aku jauh di lautan...Insyaallah...
bab dia ni lahir ni mcm2 babak ade...dramatik, realistik, fantastik, plastik pn ade...
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| Sebelum menjual MT6 |
bermula dgn kepulang aku dr Bunga Melati 6...sign off kt Singapore on 15 Feb 2014...sbb turun dr kapal dh kul 2 ptg, jadi smpai kt Larkin dh dlm kul 6 ptg...bese la nk kuar dr singpore time org dh stat kua opis ni...amat la jemnye kt tambak johor nun...ditambah pulak formalities ngn authority singapore ms tu...
sampai kt larkin je, trus tgk tiket bas nk blk temerloh...paling cpt kul 10.30 mlm...so takde ckp byk trus bli yg plg cpt tu...
dlm kul 11 mlm bas br grk dr larkin...ayoo...lambat sungguh...
ditambah pulak mlm tu ade football match antara JDT ngn terengganu kalo tak silap...bukan main jem jln dia...aaiiiigggoooo...dlm kul 4.30 pg baru aku mendarat kt temerloh...hihihi...aku kejutkan abg aku yg tgh lena beradu utk amik aku...smpai kt uma mak aku (wife duk uma mak sbb dh almost due takut2 nk besalin if aku x blk lg) dlm kul 5.30 pg...so dh genap 24 jam aku tak tido...(dlm bas tak mampu nk tido sbb bas kerap sgt berenti) sembang cikit2 sementara nk tggu subuh tu...
pas subuh tu, my syg ngadu "abg, sakit perut la"...aku ckp sakit bese2 je kot...dlm kul 8 pg tu wife aku dh tak tahan dh sakit katenye...mak aku pn suh g spital...tergamam aku...aku tak tido lg ni...ngantoknye tuhan je yg tau...
dlm terpinga2 tu aku pn bwk gak dia g spital...mujur la dia dh packing sume brg2 yg patut...aku main angkut je beg yg dia ckp...sampai je sane dia msk labour room trus...tggu dlm 3 jam nurse ckp xde progress...so admit dl la...jalan br bukak 4 cm...nurse tu ckp maybe ptg or mlm ni bersalin kot...aku pn tggu je la kt spital tu...nk tido tp xde tpt nk baring...dlm kete bkn idea yg bgs sbb suhu tgh ari yg memcecah 35'C ni blh memanggang aku nti...aku pn menanti dgn sabarnye hingga tgh mlm...dlm kul 2 pg aku tnya wife aku, xde news lg ke??"no"...abg tido dl ye...dh ngantok sgt2 ni...dia ckp ok je trus aku tido...dlm kete je...dgn amannye aku tido smpai la kul 10 pg esoknye....arramak...lamenye terlajak...trus aku kol wife tnye news...dia ckp "xde lg bang"..."abg blk dl blh?? nk mandi ni...last mandi pg smlm..."dia ckp ok...aku pn blk la...
nk tgk ank sulung kitorg kt uma tu...
>>>Cont. on Part II
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Prisoner of the SeA
Locked up in the middle of the sea
Far away from the nature of normal human being
Restriction of every movement
Bounded by thousands of regulations
Being pushed beyond the human limit
Round the clock we serve for the world
We put the utmost effort
Yet we've never been recognize
We'll keep stayed low
We won't expose ourselves
We won't show how hard we try
The unforgiving sea condition
The reduced manning
The work load
The commercial demand & pressure
The fatigue that we face on the daily basis
But still we choose to be at sea
We can't sleep without the rolling
We can't have the meal without the sweat
We can't lough without the seasick
Once a year we are to be remembered
25 June
It is our Day
To show the world who we are
To show how the multi-million businesses are carried out
To all seaman in the world
We are carrying the pride of floating people
we did everything on our own
ONLY THE BEST MAN CAN GO TO SEA...
Far away from the nature of normal human being
Restriction of every movement
Bounded by thousands of regulations
Being pushed beyond the human limit
Round the clock we serve for the world
We put the utmost effort
Yet we've never been recognize
We'll keep stayed low
We won't expose ourselves
We won't show how hard we try
The unforgiving sea condition
The reduced manning
The work load
The commercial demand & pressure
The fatigue that we face on the daily basis
But still we choose to be at sea
We can't sleep without the rolling
We can't have the meal without the sweat
We can't lough without the seasick
Once a year we are to be remembered
25 June
It is our Day
To show the world who we are
To show how the multi-million businesses are carried out
To all seaman in the world
We are carrying the pride of floating people
we did everything on our own
ONLY THE BEST MAN CAN GO TO SEA...
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Saturday, March 31, 2012
sign on again...
haip...
dh 3 bulan lebih cuti...
so now its time to leave...
kali ni jumpa janda lame lak...
Bunga Melati 7...
as i said before, aku memang nak naik kapal lame balik...
tak larat nak keje kapal baru...
ni dah 3 ari kt hotel...
esok kul 9 pagi baru gerak g kapal...
on kt port kelang je...
aku dalam dilema skang ni...
either nk quit or continue keje ngan company ni...
member2 ajak angkat kaki...
sifu2 suh sabar dulu...dptkan CoC mate dulu...
i know that CoC mate tu bonus utk aku kalo nk angkat kaki nti...
tp at the same time aku dah kurang sabar ngan company ni yg asyik menyakitkan hati para pelaut...
kalo cabut skang ni memang la lega ati...
tp bape lm senang tu tak sure la kan...
kalo stay lg, ati memang susah..
tp future lebih cerah...
tp ape mende sekali pn mesti ade pro & contra kan...
kalo bab duit ni aku mmg blh decide dlm sekelip mate je....
tp bab future ni aku btl2 hati2...
sebab aku taknak susah & menyusahkan org lain nti...
aku tengah blurr ape nak wat...
memang kalo boleh aku nak dapat CoC mate tu...
dapat master lg bagus...
bia pn tak command...
tp bape lame lg aku nak tunggu...
dah 5 tahun aku jadi 3rd mate kt cni...
takde bunga2 pn aku blh naik...
contract pn tak gerak2 lg...
ape la nasib aku 10 tahun lg ye...
cmne la aku nti...
do i will live in luxury life???
or hidup selesa je???
or today for today, tomorrow lain cite???
bg aku selesa dh cukup...
tp sape yg tau future kan...
so aku hanya mampu sab je dl...
let me think deeper bout this thing...
mane la tau kalo ade hidayah mase atas kapal nti...
hihihi...
Thursday, February 16, 2012
Updates....
Holla sumer...
ye ke sume???
padahal xde org pn yg bace blog aku nih except my syg..hahaha
dh lame btl x update blog ni...
ape blh buat..lepas rindu kt anak & isteri la kan..
well, byk sungguh mende yg x terjangka & x dirancang jadi...
contohnye mcm skang ni la...
currently in JB..
why???
nk tgk uma...
where???
kt nusajaya...
hahaha..
actually x pnh terpikir mahupn merancang nk beli uma ni....
tp disebabkan aku dh pissed off mencarik uma sewa yg x jua berjumpe,
aku telah memutuskan utk membeli aje uma baru....
agak2 la, bpe lm ms aku berfikir utk membeli uma ni???
hihihi...
guess what..
less than 12 hours...
mcm nk beli baju kt kedai je kan...
tp knp kt JB???
why not kt tempat lain???
aku pn x pasti knp...
sbb aku ikut org???
or keinginan aku merantau yg aku dh pendam since aku d bangku sekolah lg???
ahhh...
malas nk fikir...
maybe cara aku x mcm org lain yg suke memilih & terlalu memikirkan baik buruk sesuatu...
kalo aku suke, then i will decide ASAP...
bg aku bile terlalu lame & byk berfikir, terlalu byk cabang2 yg menyerabutkan kepala otak aku ni...
so think fast & act accordingly...
for me kalo beli aset, i have nothing to lose (even byk gak duit yg terbang)...
xpe la...
lagipn mylife, is in my hand...
org blh bg nasihat, tp x boleh decide utk aku....
org blh sedih tgk aku ssh, tp x blh ssh same ngan aku...
so be brave...move foreward...
silap kite, kite yg tanggung la kan...
ok la...
dh kul 3 pagi nih...
esok pagi nk g tgk uma lak...
chow dulu la...
ye ke sume???
padahal xde org pn yg bace blog aku nih except my syg..hahaha
dh lame btl x update blog ni...
ape blh buat..lepas rindu kt anak & isteri la kan..
well, byk sungguh mende yg x terjangka & x dirancang jadi...
contohnye mcm skang ni la...
currently in JB..
why???
nk tgk uma...
where???
kt nusajaya...
hahaha..
actually x pnh terpikir mahupn merancang nk beli uma ni....
tp disebabkan aku dh pissed off mencarik uma sewa yg x jua berjumpe,
aku telah memutuskan utk membeli aje uma baru....
agak2 la, bpe lm ms aku berfikir utk membeli uma ni???
hihihi...
guess what..
less than 12 hours...
mcm nk beli baju kt kedai je kan...
tp knp kt JB???
why not kt tempat lain???
aku pn x pasti knp...
sbb aku ikut org???
or keinginan aku merantau yg aku dh pendam since aku d bangku sekolah lg???
ahhh...
malas nk fikir...
maybe cara aku x mcm org lain yg suke memilih & terlalu memikirkan baik buruk sesuatu...
kalo aku suke, then i will decide ASAP...
bg aku bile terlalu lame & byk berfikir, terlalu byk cabang2 yg menyerabutkan kepala otak aku ni...
so think fast & act accordingly...
for me kalo beli aset, i have nothing to lose (even byk gak duit yg terbang)...
xpe la...
lagipn mylife, is in my hand...
org blh bg nasihat, tp x boleh decide utk aku....
org blh sedih tgk aku ssh, tp x blh ssh same ngan aku...
so be brave...move foreward...
silap kite, kite yg tanggung la kan...
ok la...
dh kul 3 pagi nih...
esok pagi nk g tgk uma lak...
chow dulu la...
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Quintero, Chile
oh...dh almosy 7 ari kt cni...
anchor je dl...
takde instruction for discharging dr BP...
takde instruction for discharging dr BP...
sume TBC....
tp bgs gak...
kalo mcm ni aku dpt gain seatime secara free...
kalo dpt 2 minggu lg best...
tp yg tak bape best tu sini agak sejuk especially awal pg...
but no big deal la kan since temperature juz 10 degree je...
 | |
| Me in Valparaiso...Paradise lol |
Quintero ni tak la jauh mane ngan Valparaiso...
kalo naik kete juz 40 minit je...
so i took the opportunity tok explore sikit Chile yg aku tak penah sampai nih...
well, agak cantik gak...
especially pantai dia...
maklum la Chile ni menghadap pacific ocean...
so air dia btl2 jernih...
tp sayangnye byk batu dari pasir...hahaha...
jadi x byk la tempat org cni bley bogel2 sunbathing...
aku juz g cuci mate cikit & shopping...
brg2 dia more or less same mcm mesia gak hargenye...
aku bli 1 jacket & few baju tok my little angle...
honestly i'm very2 excited to see my little angle now...
she seems to be extremely cute now...
hahaha...
miss u soo much la maira...
hmm...what about my syg plak??
really feel uneasy rite now coz ever since i joined this ship, i juz called her once...
on our anniversary...
then i never call again...
i want to hear her voice nagging me...
walaupn tak sedap mane,tp rindu bile tak dengar...
tu la dia love...
something yg kite ssh nk express keadaan dia...
tp i will say I Love U syg every chance i get...
now i fall in love again...
but still with the same person... | |
| I LOVE U |
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Rindu....
well, dh 3 ari kt Texas City ni...
tak abis lg loading...
ade lg 64000 bbls to go...
tp stop operation lak...angin kuat...
hmm...ari ni tetiba je rindy sgt kt syg & maira...
my syg br upload gambr baru maira...
she's getting more cute...
hahahaha...love u la maira...
nk ckp pe kt cni ek??
ok la..cmni...
to my wife Nurul Azri,
abg ucapkan terima kasih kerana sudi jadi teman hidup abg...
terima kasih sebab sabar menanti abg pulang ke sisimu...
terima kasih kerana tidak merungut sendirian menguruskan keluarga...
Syabas kerana berjaya membesarkan anak kita...
Syukur sebab syg & maira sihat sepanjang abg takde...
hanya tuhan yg mampu balas ape yg syg dh korbankan untuk kite...
abg bersyukur syg jadi teman hidup abg...
abg berdoa jodoh kite kekal selamanya...
abg tau syg bukan yg pertama...
tp biarlah syg yg terakhir untuk abg...
maafkan abg lambat menyahut cinta syg...
tp alhamdulillah citamu syg tak pernah berpaling...
abg juga berdoa syg akan terus tabah melalui hari mendatang...
to our little HuMaiRa, my grateful to Allah yg menghantar seorng penyeri hidup papa & mama...
kehadiran maira sgt bermakna...
walaupn perjalan tu mmg sukar, tp papa berdoa penghujungnya nti adalah yg terbaik...
jadilah seorg insan yg berguna...
seorg insan yg tabah & sabar...
seorg insan yg berakhlak mulia...
jgnlah mudah mengeluh & putus asa...
LIFE GOES ON...
hadapilah dgn sepenuh hati...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Texas City, USA
Salam Lebaran semua..
Alhamdulillah aku dh selamat sampai kt Texas City USA...
On my way here, kapal kene Hurricane IRENE...
hohoho...terrible....
mcm nk capsize kpl ni jdnye...
tp nsb baik la xde pape...
tp harte bende atas kpl byk gak yg jahanam...
now, back to Hari Raya Celebration...
ape nk ckp yea??
xde kot...
really nothing here...
kuih raye tu dgr name je la....
nsb baik ade org takbir...
tu je la tanda ade org yg beraya ats kpl...
knp la the damn Chidambaram Thennapan tu suh org keje pepagi raye...
tp dia sedap2 begolek kt umah @ makan angin...
asshole...
from what i'm concern, misc declare holiday for this hari raya...
means ats kpl ni x yah keje on hari raya...
but why this thing happen???
kalo diorg baya OT xpe gak...
if they declare holiday, maknenye kapal stop...no one need to work...
tp kpl x boley stop...by hook or by crook mesti keje...
tp knp bile keje x baya OT???
x patut2...
ade mase nti nk clarify ngan opis la mende ni...
baru fair...
well, lusa kapal msk port...
load ULSD (ultra low sulphur diesel)
disch port???
Quintero, Chile...
hadoiii...
cpt la kapal smpai singapore...
aku mau pulang...
Monday, August 22, 2011
Bakawali...
smekom...
hihihihi...
lame tol update blog ni...
well, juz abis bace blog my beloved wife...
dia dh komplen lm tak update blog ni...
mmg lm dh rasenye...
dkt 3 bln dh kot...
mcm sawang ade ni...
sarang tikus,nyamuk,tupai & ulat geluntor pn ade...
hahaha...
well, currently i'm in Quincy, Boston Massachusetts, USA...
tgh discharge minyak kelapa dara dr filipin...
hahaha...
well, not really minyak kelapa dara la...
name dia COCHIN...tp sebab aku tak tau nk panggil name melayu dia,aku juz letak minyak kelapa dara...
hmmm....skang atas MT Bunga Bakawali kitorg mengalami kekurangan kakitangan yg kronik...
serious ni...
kalo sorg je lg hilang enough to stop us to sail this ship...
so phm2 je la yae...
we are really at the minimun safe manning...
org cine ckp ngam2 soi....
23 crews...
compare ngan kapal lain,mmg dh beza...
diorg ade at least 27-29 crews...
so ape lg,sume keje kene divide 6 jam sorg...
senang ckp 6 hrs work & 6 hrs rest in 12 hrs...
damn...terkene aku kpl ni...
ngape la opis wat gni...
honestly aku ckp aku terlalu pnt....
bkn seminggu gni...
almost 2 months...
dan plg aku sedih, aku dh miss pose selama 10 ari...
ape nk wat...mmg tak larat...
pasni aku tekad takkan join kapal baru...
offer la ape sekali pn...
jawapan aku TAK NAK!!!!!!!!!!!!
asshole pnye Aslina....
lg 1 mende yg aku tak suke, bridge team skang ni aku sahaja warga malaysia...
what the hell...
mmg aku btl2 tekene kapal ni...
sabo je la...
well, lg few days nk raya...
tp aku dh takde ati nk raya...
mayb sbb aku dh byk miss pose & keje yg makin menimbun....
i hope time will fly faster...
aku nk blk cpt2...
tak larat aku keje gni...
better aku pacak Melati je...
ok la...enough la wat dose ngutuk org...
nk tido lak...
dh kul 3 pg ni...
kul 6 kang nk duty lak...
ok...
chao dl...
hihihihi...
lame tol update blog ni...
well, juz abis bace blog my beloved wife...
dia dh komplen lm tak update blog ni...
mmg lm dh rasenye...
dkt 3 bln dh kot...
mcm sawang ade ni...
sarang tikus,nyamuk,tupai & ulat geluntor pn ade...
hahaha...
well, currently i'm in Quincy, Boston Massachusetts, USA...
tgh discharge minyak kelapa dara dr filipin...
hahaha...
well, not really minyak kelapa dara la...
name dia COCHIN...tp sebab aku tak tau nk panggil name melayu dia,aku juz letak minyak kelapa dara...
hmmm....skang atas MT Bunga Bakawali kitorg mengalami kekurangan kakitangan yg kronik...
serious ni...
kalo sorg je lg hilang enough to stop us to sail this ship...
so phm2 je la yae...
we are really at the minimun safe manning...
org cine ckp ngam2 soi....
23 crews...
compare ngan kapal lain,mmg dh beza...
diorg ade at least 27-29 crews...
so ape lg,sume keje kene divide 6 jam sorg...
senang ckp 6 hrs work & 6 hrs rest in 12 hrs...
damn...terkene aku kpl ni...
ngape la opis wat gni...
honestly aku ckp aku terlalu pnt....
bkn seminggu gni...
almost 2 months...
dan plg aku sedih, aku dh miss pose selama 10 ari...
ape nk wat...mmg tak larat...
pasni aku tekad takkan join kapal baru...
offer la ape sekali pn...
jawapan aku TAK NAK!!!!!!!!!!!!
asshole pnye Aslina....
lg 1 mende yg aku tak suke, bridge team skang ni aku sahaja warga malaysia...
what the hell...
mmg aku btl2 tekene kapal ni...
sabo je la...
well, lg few days nk raya...
tp aku dh takde ati nk raya...
mayb sbb aku dh byk miss pose & keje yg makin menimbun....
i hope time will fly faster...
aku nk blk cpt2...
tak larat aku keje gni...
better aku pacak Melati je...
ok la...enough la wat dose ngutuk org...
nk tido lak...
dh kul 3 pg ni...
kul 6 kang nk duty lak...
ok...
chao dl...
Friday, March 25, 2011
Welkam...
hmmm...lmnye x update blog....xde mase kot??
tp rasenye lebih tepat kalo ckp xde internet..hihi...
so skang dh renew broadband pny service yg dh lm terbengkalai...
so i'm juz got home last 2 weeks...very2 tired that time...
but still happy to see my wife was healthy & her smile welcoming me home...
tp the most unexpected thing happened on the next day...
she admitted due to some problem with our baby...
and she must deliver our baby ASAP...
but the baby still have 3 weeks to go...
hadoi...
bedebar jantung ni...
dh la penat x hbs lg...tdo pn x cover lg...
5 hari dh blk kpl,tp i juz at home for 18 hours...
2 mlm tdo dlm kete...hihihi...
u blm kire tdo ms tggu doc check wife...
lantak la...
mmg ms tu sgt ngantok...
so ape ley buat...
tp everything were paid off...
11/3/11 @ 11:33am, my syg delivered our HuMaiRa...
selamat sume...
my baby & wife sihat...
even my baby x la beso mane (2.72kg)...
i'm grateful to have u HuMaiRa...(walaupn mule2 ingt baby boy)...
x kisah la..
baby girl pn comel gak ape...
n plg best is she looks really like me....
muke & attitude (ni yg klaka)...
tgk sndri baru tau knp yea...
anyway,walupn penat, syukur sumenye selamat...
skang akulah jd sura rumah...
so xpe la...hrp2 x la lm sgt...aku x cover lg tdo yg tertangguh selama 6 bln dl...
lg 2.5 bln nk sailing blk...tangguh lg 6 bln...
waaaa....
syg n HuMaiRa cpt sehat ek...
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New year....
hmmm...the new 2011 is coming...(kt USA blm lg..tp Mesia dh)...
whoa...dgn penuh harapan aku hrp aku dpt jd seorg yg lbh baik...
as a husband & also a father..
tak sgka yg cpt btl the time passed...
n the most unbelieveable thing is aku hanya d mesia utk 2.5 months je thn 2010...
hmmm...cian my syg..
mst dia rindu sgt kt aku...
xpe ye syg..abg almost otw blk dh ni...
saba ek...
to our baby,be a good child ek...
papa syg haziq...
i'm really sorry to leave u n ur mama behind...
this is my job...
grow well kid...i'm looking fwd to see u seeing the world...
like ur papa...hahaha...
love u soooo much....
whoa...dgn penuh harapan aku hrp aku dpt jd seorg yg lbh baik...
as a husband & also a father..
tak sgka yg cpt btl the time passed...
n the most unbelieveable thing is aku hanya d mesia utk 2.5 months je thn 2010...
hmmm...cian my syg..
mst dia rindu sgt kt aku...
xpe ye syg..abg almost otw blk dh ni...
saba ek...
to our baby,be a good child ek...
papa syg haziq...
i'm really sorry to leave u n ur mama behind...
this is my job...
grow well kid...i'm looking fwd to see u seeing the world...
like ur papa...hahaha...
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Bunga Balsam
Assalamualaikum...
lame tol x update blog nih...sampai username pn dh lupe...wakaka...malu tol..
well,currently i'm in New Orleans, USA...tgh loading Soya bean oil...
ni dh 3rd day kt dlm Mississippi river ni...
well,nk turun shore leave x dpt..xde US visa...
so paku kapal je la...
hmmm...aku x pnh jangka pn akan smpai kt USA ni...
dan yg paling x sangka is aku dh sampai New York..hahaha..
Bunga Balsam ni mmg dh cipta sejarah la dlm idup aku...
So pasni aku akn lalu panama n bound for tianjin...
cross pacific ocean beb...
28 days voyage...best...
lame tol x update blog nih...sampai username pn dh lupe...wakaka...malu tol..
well,currently i'm in New Orleans, USA...tgh loading Soya bean oil...
ni dh 3rd day kt dlm Mississippi river ni...
well,nk turun shore leave x dpt..xde US visa...
so paku kapal je la...
hmmm...aku x pnh jangka pn akan smpai kt USA ni...
dan yg paling x sangka is aku dh sampai New York..hahaha..
Bunga Balsam ni mmg dh cipta sejarah la dlm idup aku...
cross pacific ocean beb...
Monday, October 11, 2010
atas kapal..
Assalamualaikum...
hmmm..dh few week aku atas kapal ni...so far so good...kapal baru..so maintenance kurang la kan...tp paper works memang banyak tahap gaban punya la...
skang aku dh sampai bintulu...our 1st loading port..we'll stay here until 20th october nanti..lameee tuuuu...hahaha..
rindu lak kt wife n my baby..ape kaba la diorg agaknye skang...abg doakan syg sihat2 n baby kite pn sama mcm tu gak...i miss both of u soo much...saba Haziq ek..papa keje ni...nanti papa blk papa bg present kt Haziq...Haziq jgn nakal2 sgt...cian kt mama tau..
makin aku tgk gmbr ni,aku jd makin rindu kt diorg...saba2...bln 3 nti aku blk..hrp2 sempat la tgk perut mama baby sebelum deliver...hihihi...musti chumel...
I LOVE both of U....
hmmm..dh few week aku atas kapal ni...so far so good...kapal baru..so maintenance kurang la kan...tp paper works memang banyak tahap gaban punya la...
skang aku dh sampai bintulu...our 1st loading port..we'll stay here until 20th october nanti..lameee tuuuu...hahaha..
rindu lak kt wife n my baby..ape kaba la diorg agaknye skang...abg doakan syg sihat2 n baby kite pn sama mcm tu gak...i miss both of u soo much...saba Haziq ek..papa keje ni...nanti papa blk papa bg present kt Haziq...Haziq jgn nakal2 sgt...cian kt mama tau..
I LOVE both of U....
Friday, September 24, 2010
join kapal...
hmm...lm aku tak update blog ni...
well,aku dh ade kt Tong Yeong, South Korea skang...
nk deliver MT Bunga Balsam (lawak name tu kan)...
dh 2 ari kt sini...ok la...skang tak bape banyak keje yg kene wat lg...juz paper works...but soon dlm 28hb 9 ni,maybe keje smpai lebam...u know why???ship should sail on 29 or 30...but all the stores arrived on 28...gile laa...dh sailing nanti kene pikir nk vetting lak..it'll b on the 1st loading port...(Sandakan maybe)...n mase tu gak nk wat ceremony for the delivery...n also the additional stores will come onboard..,abis la mata aku nanti...
tapi insyaallah aku tak pape...aku yg mintak deliver ni...kalo tak aku join Melati 5...wakaka...padan ngan muke aku...
well,aku dh ade kt Tong Yeong, South Korea skang...
dh 2 ari kt sini...ok la...skang tak bape banyak keje yg kene wat lg...juz paper works...but soon dlm 28hb 9 ni,maybe keje smpai lebam...u know why???ship should sail on 29 or 30...but all the stores arrived on 28...gile laa...dh sailing nanti kene pikir nk vetting lak..it'll b on the 1st loading port...(Sandakan maybe)...n mase tu gak nk wat ceremony for the delivery...n also the additional stores will come onboard..,abis la mata aku nanti...
tapi insyaallah aku tak pape...aku yg mintak deliver ni...kalo tak aku join Melati 5...wakaka...padan ngan muke aku...
Monday, August 30, 2010
Good news..
hmm...ari ke 4 my syg kt spital...well aku nampak sikit perkembangan...this is a good news for me..dia dh blh makan bubur..i'm really happy to see that..tgh ari td aku bawak bubur...abis dia makan & dia tak vomit..ptg td lak,my mom bwk lagi bubur n sup for her...dia makan gak without vomit..hihihi..Thank God..& dia pn dh tukar diet kt spital...makan bubur lagi..tak kisah la..janji dia sihat cepat sikit...tak sampai ati tengok dia muntah aje bile makan..
Saturday, August 28, 2010
blurr(@_@)!@#$%^&*()_+
hmm...dh 3 ari belalu...tp my wife still d same...keep vomiting bile makan @ minum...sume mende aku dh try bg...tp still muntah..what is right & what went wrong??betul2 blurr(@_@)!@#$%^&*()_+...aku tak pikir yg dia tu muntah sebab hormone unbalance...lagi teruk dari orang gastrik...kalo hormone unbalance takkan la sampai admitted...tol tak??ape lagi yg aku boley bg dia makan @ minum setidak2nye dia tak vomit??bubur,nasik, roti,buah,susu,jus, 100+, air zam zam,gulai lemak,kari,telur,ikan,ayam,daging,mee,maggi,tom yam...hadoi..buntu aku bile pikir mende nih..
aku rasa la,doctor pn blurr(@_@)!@#$%^&*()_+ macam aku gak kot..sebab tu la dia pn wat macam wife aku tu takde pape..padahal vomit depan dia...dlm sejam ade la dlm 10 kali...
ntah la..aku juz boley doa n saba banyak2 je skang ni...i hope both of them will be fine...Syg,be strong yea..
aku rasa la,doctor pn blurr(@_@)!@#$%^&*()_+ macam aku gak kot..sebab tu la dia pn wat macam wife aku tu takde pape..padahal vomit depan dia...dlm sejam ade la dlm 10 kali...
ntah la..aku juz boley doa n saba banyak2 je skang ni...i hope both of them will be fine...Syg,be strong yea..
wife...
today is the 3rd day my wife in the hospital...hmm..bile dia nk discharge pn tak tau la..hopefully cepat la dia recover..aku dh tak senang duduk dh kt uma nih..ye la kan dia duk sorang2 je dalam wad tu..aku tak ley teman sebab tu wad pempuan..
i know she's been thru a lot of things without me with her..for this i thank her as much as i could..n i swear to love her for my entire life..cepat sembuh ek syg..tak lama lg abg dh nk sailing...i can feel it..i know that going to sea now is not a good idea..but i've to choose this so that i'll be around when our baby is coming (i think someday on April next year)..
syg,soooo sorry for keeping this from you..bkn nk rahsiakan..tp i don't u to feel uneasy..it's bad for u n our baby..syg jaga kesihatan yek..Love you sooo much..
i know she's been thru a lot of things without me with her..for this i thank her as much as i could..n i swear to love her for my entire life..cepat sembuh ek syg..tak lama lg abg dh nk sailing...i can feel it..i know that going to sea now is not a good idea..but i've to choose this so that i'll be around when our baby is coming (i think someday on April next year)..
syg,soooo sorry for keeping this from you..bkn nk rahsiakan..tp i don't u to feel uneasy..it's bad for u n our baby..syg jaga kesihatan yek..Love you sooo much..
juz begun...
1st day in this blog...
ape nak tulis???haha..xpe la..tulis aje..juz begun...
Actually aku tak tau pun camne nak blogging nih...tp bedal jek la...hihi...
ape nak tulis???haha..xpe la..tulis aje..juz begun...
Actually aku tak tau pun camne nak blogging nih...tp bedal jek la...hihi...
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